It has been nearly a year since I last wrote a blog. I miss being a blogger. I miss talking to nobody, somebody, a friend, a stranger, an enemy, an imaginary friend, or for that matter, just.. myself...
I was last speaking of my commencement, my worries regarding my future, and all that jazz. That future I was speaking about is finally here-- it is the present moment... and maybe you were wondering, "Hmm, so how did that turn out?" I had been doing "okay", "fine", "could be better", but I received the rejection letter last Monday for an "ideal" post at an "ideal" company. Well hey, at least I got to the final round.
So there goes my BIG dreams, reduced to its negative form. Gone.
I'd say I'm currently going through a big change. I'm dishearteningly depressed in many ways. I feel socially disconnected. I don't like to be around people. I kind of.. hate people. But not in an anti-social way.
I'm uninspired, "de-inspired".
Hmm.. I don't sound very good, do I.
I just don't know what I want, where I want to be, how I want my life.. Maybe I'm overthinking, but I don't have my sense of direction, so, I can't just easily "follow my heart".. What the fuck does that supposed to mean? "Follow your heart".. ????
Not a clue.
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