In some stories they say that happiness goes hand in hand with being with someone you love, loving someone and being loved, that happiness surely cannot be built alone. For some it may be true. Some people need people. And it's good, you know, to be happy. One thing I know about myself is that I certainly don't need people. I lack the social capacity to connect. The more I look at my life, I feel that maybe I have never known happiness. Call me a nihilist. What is morality? What is trust? Who can you really trust? What is love? In the end. Everything means nothing .
and I am just one.fucked.up.person. deeply.fucked.in.the.head.

It has been nearly a year since I last wrote a blog. I miss being a blogger. I miss talking to nobody, somebody, a friend, a stranger, an enemy, an imaginary friend, or for that matter, just.. myself...

I was last speaking of my commencement, my worries regarding my future, and all that jazz. That future I was speaking about is finally here-- it is the present moment... and maybe you were wondering, "Hmm, so how did that turn out?" I had been doing "okay", "fine", "could be better", but I received the rejection letter last Monday for an "ideal" post at an "ideal" company. Well hey, at least I got to the final round.

So there goes my BIG dreams, reduced to its negative form. Gone.

I'd say I'm currently going through a big change. I'm dishearteningly depressed in many ways. I feel socially disconnected. I don't like to be around people. I kind of.. hate people. But not in an anti-social way.

I'm uninspired, "de-inspired".

Hmm.. I don't sound very good, do I.

I just don't know what I want, where I want to be, how I want my life.. Maybe I'm overthinking, but I don't have my sense of direction, so, I can't just easily "follow my heart".. What the fuck does that supposed to mean? "Follow your heart".. ????

Not a clue.

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Change of plans.

Apparently, pretty little things are not quite enough in life.
Well, of course I knew that. Sure I did.

The prospects of having an impressive job immediately following my graduation are slim. The closer I am to my commencement, the more I struggle with the mistakes that I've made in the past two years.

I've come to find that some mistakes are irreversible, in particularly, those related to one's academic pursuits-- recorded and stamped on official papers that define your intelligence-- with just that-- a number.

Although they may be irreversible, they can be overridden by the better choices you will make with the experience you have now gained.

Create your future.

Masha Ma S/S 2011

Have I forgotten to share with you one of my favorites from London Fashion Week last month? (I hadn't started this blog at the time...) It is long overdue but it's absolutely my responsibility to feed your eyes with candy.

Masha Ma completed her MA in Women’s Wear at Central Saint Martins in 2008. Her MA collection was selected to show at London Fashion Week and subsequently bought by B store. Not surprisingly, she has been featured everywhere from Vogue, Elle, Harper’s Bazaar to Another Magazine, Cosmopolitan, L’Officiel and Pop.

Looking for that extra bit of ‘je ne sais quoi’? Her style is chic and modern without being over the top. Her S/S 2011 collection is inspired by the 1950s, outlining the beauty of the feminine silhouette.

What I love about her collection is its simplicity, exactly as described, giving a touch of elegance without shouting for attention. The minty colors and futuristic gleam of the clothing is very "cyber chic," for lack of better words.